I'm tired.
And I'm frustrated.
And I'm discouraged.
It's like a never ending cycle. When things start to go well, you just get knocked right back down to reality.
I'm tired of the cycle.
Tired of the uncertainty. I know life is full of uncertainties and it's something that I can count on, but at some point some of it just gets old.
I know this too shall pass.
I try ridiculously hard to laugh as much as I can, but there are times, times in which it's incredibly hard to form the smallest resemblance of a smile. And that's okay. Just can't stay there.
In the end, I choose to continue to move forward. That's all I can do. And not care what anyone else thinks. I can't change them just like I can't change the weather. I choose to do what I have to do for me, no one else.
I'm reminded of scripture in Ecclesiastes...Don't be too quick to get angry because anger lives in the fools heart.
I'm choosing happiness over anger. I'm choosing my peace over their anger. I'm choosing me.
I'm currently heating Sandalwood and Lavender in the wax melt container, which has offered quite a bit of calm.